Sad News, now confused what to next?

Hello all
I have just learned from his wife that my great friend, training/riding buddy and drinking partner has died in a tragic accident (not cycle related). We had started training early this year as we had places on the Caledonia Etape, we had also entered the Highclere and the Surrey 100 and we planned to finish the year with a charity ride to Paris. As you can probably imagine my head is in a spin and my stomach is hurting.......selfishly the shine has tragically come off the rides, especially the Etape ride as he really could not wait to go 'hammer and tongs' at it!
I am at a complete loss as what to do, I look up from desk and can see the training plan that we had been following and can see todays effort is a 2 hour evening ride with some hill reps, but I do not know if I can 'get back on' today, tomorrow or even manage Scotland, I am lost.
What a waste, so sad RIP mate.
I have just learned from his wife that my great friend, training/riding buddy and drinking partner has died in a tragic accident (not cycle related). We had started training early this year as we had places on the Caledonia Etape, we had also entered the Highclere and the Surrey 100 and we planned to finish the year with a charity ride to Paris. As you can probably imagine my head is in a spin and my stomach is hurting.......selfishly the shine has tragically come off the rides, especially the Etape ride as he really could not wait to go 'hammer and tongs' at it!
I am at a complete loss as what to do, I look up from desk and can see the training plan that we had been following and can see todays effort is a 2 hour evening ride with some hill reps, but I do not know if I can 'get back on' today, tomorrow or even manage Scotland, I am lost.
What a waste, so sad RIP mate.
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This is going to sound cliched but the best thing you can do is get back on and train your a*rse off and do the rides to the very best of your ability.
Good luck with everything, thoughts go out.
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Give it a while. Grieve, then get back on it. To not do the rides would be tragic so you need to ride them in tribute to him and your friendship. Do what feels right for you now, even if that is sitting around and eating pies. But get back on it when you can.
Take care.
+1 Do the rides in memory of him and think of him as you do them
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Andy
If your friend is as most of us here are, I'm sure on a top three list of things to do before he left would have been to ride with you, be it training or one of the events you had planned. If it were me I'd do my best to carry on as best i could to do it.
I'm not a religious person, or would even claim to be spiritual in anyway. I've only ever told my wife this:
Last year I lost one of my best friends I'd known all of my life, without him there is a hole that really can't be filled, but, I'm closer to him than ever when I ride my bike. Especially on the hard climbs and fast descents, it's as though I have a helping hand.
Do what feels right, better to try and stop if it's wrong than put the brakes on everything.
First of all remember that your mate is now at peace and it's you and those who where close to him that are feeling pain right now. Look after each other, take some time out and then see how you feel about doing the rides.
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I know it sounds cliched but would you stopping riding be what your mate would want. Indeed you stopping riding will afterall not change anything other than (A) make you even more miserable. (B) cycling loses two riders.
My mum died two christmas eves ago and getting on my bike was the most possitive thing I did. Although when I first set off the feeling of guilt was huge, it's amazing how things start and sort themselves out in your head.
Take a deep breath, throw your leg over the top tube, click in and turn the cranks my owd. Grieving is not the easiest or most comfortable road to get down but, honestly, cycling will be a help.
All the very best.
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This is awful. My condolences.
What the other guys have said. Go at it "hammer and tongs" in his memory.
Good luck.
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very sorry to read of your loss there...I would recommend going with your gut instinct, don't ride them if it upsets you. In 1985 as a 15 year old came back from a training run and found out my brother had just died in an RTA...I was back cycling in 3 days, even though had lost all appetite for food...was like my reaction...go cycle even on the day of his funeral I went cycling that evening...looking back , highly abnormal and definitely unhealthy as I later realised in my mid 20s...so best don't force yourself out on the bike for a while...
Three years ago, my best friend died suddenly during a 5 mile time trial. I was utterly disillusioned and heartbroken! Personally, despite my other school mates packing it in, i carried on harder than ever because thats what he would have wanted.
It might be hard to get yourself to carry on with the same training plan, i found riding with other club members actually helpled to ease the pain linked withno longer training with my mate. Chin up
I think that it would be the best thing in the world for you to do the challenge. It will be really tough, but it will probably help you, in the long run.
And what you are feeling is not selfish - it's natural.
Take care.
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Many, many thanks for all of your messages of condolence, best wishes and advice. Its quite strange at the moment, I make a decision about the coming events and once I'm convinced that’s what I am going to do I immediately think its the wrong thing to do and change my mind. My good friend would have told me to get over it and ride it, I know life MUST go on and I'm so sure he would have wanted me to ride.
I will take the next few days to gather my thoughts and ride a few miles, after all he would have gone mad if we didn’t ride in this glorious sunshine we have at the moment.
Thank you all once again, your help and advice has really helped.
Shane
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So sorry to hear your sad news.
Wishing you all the best & hope to see you at Etape Caledonia
Karen
Can I suggest you ride the Etape as normal, but at the top of Schiehalion stop for a minute's silence - then carry on. Do it for him, he will have wanted it
I like your idea Gavin, a moment to pause and rememeber.
Cheers all
Shane